this is another late blog..

I felt like blogging this yesterday, but was too sleepy to do so..

anyway, this happened while I was looking at my friendster account.. yes I still have a friendster account, but that's only because I still have friends who don't want to own a multiply account and prefer maintaining friendster..

anyway, I was looking at the recently updated people in my friendlist.. and what I saw made me gloomy..

it's not like its supposed to be a big deal.. it's just that I never thought that there would come a day that their profiles would be seen together in the same web page..

simply put, this involves a person from the past whom I liked (take note, LIKED), and another person to which I don't know what I should feel..

nakakamiss din pala..

mahigit dalawang taon na siguro nung huli akong humawak ng gitara at tumugtog para sa maraming tao..

actually, hindi naman talaga ako gitarista.. tinuruan lang ako nung high school kasi tinuro ng teacher namin nung 3rd year kami, at napagtripan ko nung 4th year dahil nainggit ako sa lahat ng mga may hawak ng gitara..

hindi ko napansin, tumigil din ako sa pagtugtog ng gitara.. siguro kasi, wala na rin akong inspiraxon na tumugtog ulit.. kahit pa maraming magagandang kanta jan sa industriya, either hindi ko gusto ung kanta, or mahirap para sa akin ang chords..

hirap din ako sa strumming.. so parang nakaka-down na marunong ako magbasa ng chords, pero panget ako tumugtog..

nung sabado may klasmeyt ako sa nihongo na dala-dala ang kanyang electric guitar at sabi niya pina-tune niya ito kaya niya dala.. napagtripan xa ng sensei namin kaya tumugtog xa.. ayos! japanese songs ang tinugtog.. saktong sakto para sa venue..

after nun.. naalala ko ang tanging kanta na alam ko tugtugin sa gitara.. ngayon, tinitignan ko ulit ang chords nito.. at gaya nga ng naalala ko, un nga ang alam kong chords.. wala lang.. random thought lang.. felt like it was worth writing..

how do you spend P12 on

life is an equilibrium..

para sa aking mga frequent readers, NO this is not an emo blog.. pause muna ang *emo mode* dahil tinatabunan na ako ng mga exams..

anyway.. pampahaba lang ng blog para hindi mabasa sa inbox ang mismong laman ng blog, ang sinasabi nilang araw na dapat mag-enjoy ako ay sandwiched ng lahat ng aking mga exams.. sa decemer 5 ay may 2 exams ako.. sa december 7 may 2 exams nanaman.. at sa 6 mismo hindi ko alam kung ilang exams ang makukuha ko.. baka 1 or 2 rin..

anyway, let's go back to the title of the blog..

to my non-science major friends, or for that matter anyone who is not trained in the field of chemistry, I'm sure once in a while you ask yourself "why is life so hard?". there are times that you're at the top of the world, and then the next thing you know you're down in the dumps.. what is it that makes things work such that each time you succeed there is a corresponding price that you have to pay?

in my world, we call that the "state of equilibrium".. here, a chemical reaction takes place both in the forward and the reverse direction.. it can be that the chemical that we wish to form is actually going back to its original state.. conversationally, anything that we do to move forward, at equilibrium, there must be something that goes back to you..

people who've succeeded at a lot of things can either thank luck that they made it, or it cost them a lot of time and effort to make it through.. and if after all that they seem to be stable, then we can say that they are in equilibrium..

but, there are some factors that can alter the state of equilbrium in any system, or in this case, anybody's life.. external factors that are out of our control that we did not anticipate, forcing us back instead of moving forward.. we want to get the job done but the external factor is holding us back from working efficiently, we strive to be happy but end up crying instead.. there are just some things that are out of our control..

despite all that, there's a beauty in the state of equilibrium.. should the system receive an external force, the system would naturally shift so as to achieve equilibrium again.. where am I going? simply, you could fail a subject, lose someone you care about a lot, or it can even be as simple as missing the last bus that takes you home. it can be any failure or painful experience that has greatly affected you. but you must always remember, that no matter what problems or failures you receive in life, there will come a time when you'd eventually be able to stand high again..

this does not mean that you'll stand high by yourself.. external factors are also available to help you stand again.. these factors can be anything in your life.. you just have to know where to find them.. sometimes, its just there by the corner.. all you have to do is to let it help you, and it will..



*dedicated to the troubled people*

smileys galore..

Here's the deal: you can't answer any of these questions with words.
You can only use Smiley faces. Answer with an emoticon you feel fits
as your answer. Make up your own smiley! :]

Hi, how is your day? *_*
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How do you feel about alcohol? XXD
Do you know how to drive? ^____________________^
How do you feel about roller coasters? O_O
Do you like little kids? @_@
Did you sleep with a stuffed animal when you were little? :/
Do you like school? X_X
How do you feel about plaid patterns? :-/
Do you like Coca Cola? X(
Do you like scary movies? xD
How is your life as of right now? :-o
Do you enjoy being alone? x_x
Do you like the smell of hand sanitizer? -_-
Do you believe in magic? c:
Do you like going to concerts? XXXXXXXDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Do you like cold weather? C:
What about warm weather? -_-
Are you a crazy, outgoing person? -_-
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Are any parts of you sore right now? -_-
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How is your relationship between you and your family? :)
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Do you like piercings? -_-
What about tattoos? -_-
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Are you a little kid on the inside? XD
What about on the outside? -_-
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How do you feel about our new president? DX
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Describe yourself in one emotion.: ^@^

the bus home take 3..

for the first few sentences of this blog allow me talk nonsense since it would be posted in your inbox.. after which, allow me to show you what happened in the bus yesterday..

actually, what happened is basically I got of a few hundred meters from where I was supposed to get off..

what really happened that I could not control was which station the bus was listening to..

I didn't hear what station they were on.. but what happened to me was that they played a song that was very timely for my mood..

and without further ado, here it is..

wow.. I'm more melancholic than I was when I first took this test..

Malaya Matsuura,

Your personality is Melancholy Phlegmatic

Melancholy Strength:7 Weakness:14

53%

Phlegmatic Strength:3 Weakness:5

20%

Sanguine Strength:5 Weakness:1

15%

Choleric Strength:2 Weakness:0

5%

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the last time I took this test, my melancholy-phlegmatic ratio was almost 1:1.. hey, whatever happens, I'm still a melancholy person.. diba claudio?